You know those nights where you cant sleep because your thinking about that guy or girl you love?

..... OR

your just thinking?

yeah i had one of them last night.

I made the biggest mental renovation of my life because of a fall out with a friend i recently had (the fallout not the friend)

So excuse the vanity but in order to get my point across, i've got to relate it back to me

and i know you all love it

im Oprah.
I get told peoples emotions and listen and help them
and i do it for everyone
because as frank and vain as it sounds im friends with everyone.
Yes
i have the close girls and close guys
but generally speaking
everyone i talk to has had some initmate moment with me and
i love it. 
I relish it.

I hate it.

because it got me to where i am now.

friendless so to speak.

you know that saying

"he who has a thousand friends has not a friend to spare"?

i finally understand it.

so last night amongst making my wedding plans with Dan Carter,
i decided being everyones friend isn't enough.
For me its harsh,
but its time to start prioritising people

because every fall out ive ever had was because i never had time for the person
ive lost friends
ive lost best friends
ive lost life friends

the friends i have now are the true friends because they know that i love them and will always be there for them, and that its just in my nature to want to be superwoman
(hey what can i say, im a superstar)

but i cant

i cant save everyone

so its time to put into the ones that are always saving me